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Everything

Days pass.
As I stare.
Mood sways..
Drooping arms.
No more smiles.
No more happiness..
No more dreams.....


Now it's too late for me.
Cause I've passed on.
Passed on...
Moved on...
To the world of the unknown.
To the world where happiness fell..
To the world where everything that happened was suddenly remembered.
To the world where everything was opposite.
To the world where no one knew anything about.

Where I was once again remembered...
But in a way,
where they finally knew
What they had done.

Where I would finally smile again...
And finally be known
For what I have done...

I haate my life....

....

I just feel horrible, and I honestly don't know anything else to say..

Whatever, you read it, then you read it.

I just hope... things get better... Things aren't okay right now...
There isn't a positive side I can look on..

I just feel horrible.. Mentally, Physically.. I dunno. I'm sick.. My heart hurts... I can barely sleep without worrying.. My family is in crisis..

I honestly, don't know what to say...

Eric.. probably doesn't need me... And I know he's going to leave me from the looks of how he acts... I'm nothing to him....

Oh dammit... I have no one to talk to ever... I can't talk to him about it.. Cause I'm still nervous to talk thing over with him... I just wish things would get better...

No one understand me... Not even him... If only they did... I'd have someone to talk to..

I've been crying all day, I want the tears to stop... Cause I know it's over soon... My heart hurts and it's telling me...

Dammit... and the only person I can talk to is this stupid blogspot... I can't cuddle with a cat.. or a hamster... Cause I don't have a cat... Hamsters are too small..

When I'm sad, I cuddle with my pillow and pretend it's someone special... Like.. the one and only person who wouldn't desert me.. who loves me for me. Who doesn't laugh at what I tell them.. Who doesn't care whether I'm pretty or not.. Who knows me...
I listen to happy music too. So I can feel happy.. and forget about life... and pretend I have at least some hope...
"I'm Yours- Jason Mraz" makes me feel sorta happy.. "If it means a lot to you- A Day to Remember" makes me feel happy too...

Talking to happy people make me happy too.. Like old men with happy smiles and all..

I hope things go alright....

Heart.

Honestly, I don't know what to say.

Abbuse.

Well... Uhm.

How would it feel like you're trapped in a isolated house, not allowed to even go out with friends, and result to going on the computer and being COMPLETELY yelled at...

Well.. what else do you want me to do, DAD? All I can simply do is go on the computer because there is NOTHING else to do. Or without you having to tell me what I can/can't do.

WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO DURING THE *SUMMER*.

You know.. Summer? Time to relax? Wow. And you put me in a position where I have do nothing at all.

You won't take me anywhere, you don't even care for your family, you don't even love us.

Really, you're one of the worst fathers ever. I hate you. And that's it.

I really do hate you. I don't care what anyone says. I HATE you. You don't understand one bit about being a dad you stupid illiterate piece of shit.

You will never be my father.

Wish.

Smaller the better..
The bigger the worse.

I wished big.. and all it did, was flashback right at my heart.

What did I do?

...
Absolutely nothing.

Let me fall... Let me crash. Let me fall...

Let it all.. Let it all....

Gut.

I hate this feeling.


Inside me.. it tells me to let loose and to just relax.. But what I want to do, is to jump up and fight back.

If you know what I mean.
What I want to do is to get rid of pain. I want to put myself out of my misery.
Yeah... I said it.


I just hate it... and no one will stop me if I try.